What "Tasha Has To Say ( Take 1)

I wish people would understand what i go though each day living with this disorder.I want people to know that if u have a mental illness its not the end of the world but for some who have it even thoe it feels that way for the person.Im not crazy because i have this illness im just mis understood and i fight every day for my life really i fight every single day i fight so i dont give in to the drepression or the illness itself! and that waking up in the morning is starting a new battle for myself which many people inculdeing my parnets dont understand and will never understand. because if i stop fighting for one day one mintue i would die i would just give up on life itself but ive come to learn that each day is really a blessing from god himself and no matter how cruel life may be sometimes i have to look at what i do have and not what i dont.So i know ive push away people who truly love and care for me friends and family and im deeply sorry for that its just that im fighting it again and again i try so hard with friends to keep them and some have work some dont.I mostly blame myself for not having friends or a boyfriend but i know deep down thats not true at all but i do know one thing in this life iam ever so gratefully for and that is my father he has always been there for good the bad and the ugly!and i just wanted to say that i thank god every day that im alive and still fighting and i hope and pray with this messgse people and even my family might understand me better i love u dad!!!!